Well , it has been more than a year since I was able to come back here and write.
Since the passing of my brother Tommy so suddenly and so unexpectedly, I have been unable to come back and face the world without him.
Many things transpired since, the life that we started here on the farm, has brought oh so many pleasures and adventures as well as hardships and trials.
Life is sweet and great if I can stay focused on the boys.
What a wonderful sight to see David at his best, and Roni is getting there too.
My dad, when angry with me, would say "I hope that you too will feel the frustrating anger that I feel right now, by having a son like you are!"
Well, at first I was sure that he was refering to David, but now I am sure that it is Roni. He just passed 11 and is as much his own person as I remember I was or at least wanted to be.
David who will be 15 next June is a giant and a man with strong morals, ethics and a wonderful sense of humour with a giant heart.
Yes, he learnt at an early age how to melt mom's heart. Whenever she cooks a meal that pleases him, he says " Mom, Jamie would be ashamed to call himself a cook, never mind a celebrity chef, as any restaurant would kick him out to have you!'
Living on a farm was always a romantic notion, that in real life means alot more work than I could have ever imagined. Here I lucked out with my Matild, as she is and has been a farm girl from birth, living in a big city for the past 20 years.
Now that she has come back to her roots, yes she was born close to where we are now, her mom lives less than a kilometer from here and one of her sisters 2 kilometers while the third one, in a big city, well everything is relative, actually 50 thousand people is not big, Székelyudvarhely is 34 kilometers away.
She is there right now, doing our big shopping for Christmas as this is the last of the monies that we have. That is the downside of living here, as my friend Ron said when he came to visit us 2 years ago, and we kept driving and passing small vilages , he kept saying is this it?
No, I answered it's still a bit further, and when we got to The Big city...he said "Hey this isn't so small!" I explained to him, that this our biggie and we are still 34 km away.
So, when we got to Oakland , he was sure that this is it and I responded, two more kilometers, well he then said "Hey, you don't live at the end of the world, you live past the end of the world!'
Saddly nothing is coming together as it should have, no work, no income and no easy roads out as from here it is only through the computer that there is news of the world and even that sometimes goes away, well lately more often than usual, the power failures, that are frequently occouring here.
This past April, while in Budapest, job and opportunity hunting, someone stole my back pack, from my friends house, while we went to get my renewed Canadian passport. That is the only document that I have left my passport. As the back pack had everything in it, my papers , ma laptop, that had all my contacts , and life from the previous 10 years on it, as well as cash and some never again to be replaced memorobilia.. ...you see I left it there , thinking that it is safer than in a car on the streets.
The cash that was there was a month's pay plus all the savings in my wallet, in dollars , euros and even Seychelles Rupees as well as Dubai Dhs ...all gone. Never was the one that gives up, I have attempted to restart another project with my best and longest lasting friend in Budapest. A virtual ad agency, that I could do from anywhere and that I do know well ..........did that for 6 months to face a cold reality that he never really wanted to do the English side as well and that he just wanted to build it in Hungarian. I feel at a loss to explain why he didn't call me , or write me during the 3 months when everyday seemed like a week and a week was a month.......but now I am at peace with that too as he is upset with me, that I have not done what he wanted and that is build it in Hungarian. He is very Hungarian, so much so, that he is comparing the world as backwards and short historied compared to Hungary. He believes and tried to convince me and all about him that there are traces of Hungarians going back 37,000 years. Oh, I always knew that he was very tied to his country but when I brought another friend into the office, and word came about leaving this country as the second friend is going to explore Australia, my dear Hungarian said "Someone has to stay here and build it back up again!" .
Well, now I am waiting for news from the US as that is where I hope to be next, if not then Seychelles.
Both have many more doors and opportunities, and my boys sure deserve more than what it looks now , that this region with its nationalistic and exclusivity from the rest of EU and the world in general is heading backwards to a day where it was the darkest era.
In Hungary they are changing laws, curtailing freedoms, firing people because of race and or religion. Antisemitism is a sport and not just on the streets but in Parliament as well and the worst I believe is about to come now.
Trials are all one sided as only their judges have power, last week the head judges post was awarded to the wife of a right wing EU representative. Elie Wiesel's trial starts in January where his accusers are claiming that his whole life is a fraud and that his tatood number belongs to the real Ellie. Only in Hungary ! This is the only country where they never faced the horrid past of the holocaust. As a matter of fact, some or many even deny its existance. Youtube is full of the Magyar Garda and Google has much about the Facsist Hungary but the papers and on the internet there are now lists of "Who is Jewish" the top 500 and that is all too much.
Hope is real , somewhere else.
Maybe after a while the nice folks who voted these people in, will realize that everything costs much more, they are making much less, that is, if they still have their jobs as Hungary has isolated herself from the EU, the US and most democratic countries, while declaring war with IMF and EU financial institutions. The sensation that had them rally against the previous government, will go away and give this happy go lucky land back to the people that really made it great!
Am very happy we left almost three years ago, as the boys were called bad Jewish names as they boarded the bus home from school....then, I never would have believed how far this will slide downwards, that one of the main theaters in Budapest would be handed over to an open antisemite who was in politics and has a newspaper that always has some dirt to spill on Jews and that is the light side compared what they do with Gypsies and Homosexuals.
So, I Intend with all my heart to leave this area and to go where there is Love, Hope and opportunity to live in harmony not just with nature and animals but with people as well.
As John Lennon so prophetically said in Imagine........and all his other songs...Love concours all.
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The Guardian, Sun 25 Dec 2011 22.43 GMT
http://m.guardian.co.uk/commentisfree/2011/dec/25/hungary-playing-chicken-editorial?cat=commentisfree&type=article